The Art Of Self Discovery
July 5, 2023
I have spent a lot of time on social media during the month of June and something that I have really discovered as that 1. I am far too easily influence and 2. I have curated a group of accounts that I follow that I really resonate with. There are only so many hours in a day and I am spending far too many focusing on other peoples high light reels, but in watching them I have found some things out about myself:
1. I am ready to start making art again. This has been a struggle of mine for the past 6 (?) years since graduation from college because of the professors I had. I was very often told that my work was not good enough or was ridiculed in front of the class. This was not all of my professors, but the kindness was not as heavy as the lack there of. I am not someone who handles that well. If you tell me I am awful I will agree with you. This is something that I have been working on for a long time, and am happy to say that I am not quite as quick to agree as I once was in this department, but I am still very hard on myself. All of this to say, I have spent a lot of time away from art making due to the lack of kindness from many of my college professors, but I am ready to move on from that. I have given myself plenty of time to heal and learn from other artists either from the internet, or from the art gallery I worked at off and on for the past years. I am ready to stretch my legs and start working in my sketchbook again. I do not need to make masterpieces right away ( or ever ) but it is nice to know that I am finally able to allow myself freedom in that area again.
2. I am fully convinced I need to live in a small, northern, coastal tow and open up a small coffee shop with big flowering bushes out front and local artists work hanging on the walls. In case you missed my last blog post, I watched The Summer I Turned Pretty twice this week, so that defiantly has made an impact on this dream, but I follow quite a few artists who live in Vancouver and a fashion designer who lives in Maine and between these three things I am fully convinced I need to live in one of these small northern towns at least for a couple years.
3. I love seeing other people’s lives and watching other peoples stories unfold, but I am desperately needing a break from being able to see all of it all the time. It is so sweet to see my friends who have children post about how much their little has grown since I have seen them last, or pictures from a hike that my friend who has a puppy went on, or the gorgeous run that my friend who lives in Los Angeles just went on, but Instagram has turned into a pit of comparison and distraction for me.
All of this is to be said, I am taking a break from social media for a moment while I work on finding myself a little bit on my own. I am so excited to meet her and share her here, with you, while I am uncovering bits of her as I find them. Thank you, dear reader, for coming along with me on this journey.
