Inner Battles

March 25, 2024

I struggle a lot with being like other people. I struggle a lot with the idea of following trends and leaning into things that others are doing. I am an enneagram 4 through and through and feel very strongly about not doing the same thing every one else does.

I am planning on dying my hair red, and I had multiple people tell me that it is very in style right now, and that almost made me not want to do it.

There are a lot of books that people are reading together because they are popular on TikTok or Instagram and I feel like I cannot read them because everyone else is reading them.

Everyone else is obsessed with cottagecore right now, and I’ll be honest, I am fully leaning into the cottagecore, hyper feminine, antique-y feel and feel almost guilty for it, because I don’t want to be doing the same thing as everyone else.

I want to be seen as unique and special and one-of-a-kind and I am not sure how to cope with the despite need to be unique and also be understood.