Movies and Missing Things

February 24, 2020

It’s funny how something I hated at the time is something that I really miss.

In case you have missed the reviews lately, I have been watching a lot of teen or coming-of-age movies. Firstly, a lot of then make me miss something I never had: a friend group that you grew up with, someplace that I had volunteered a lot, a really great school dance experience, a lot of adventures of staying up too late and staying out passed curfew. But movies always make that all seem so fantastic and none of that is real life. At least I don’t think it’s what other people had as their high school experience. And maybe that is because I grew up in a place that seems to just be hitting its teen hood. It’s been in it’s awkward preteen-hood for a while. Not sure really what to do with itself, not really grown into their nose or their teeth quite yet. They are cool now, but defiantly weren’t in middle school.

Regardless of all of the silly things that these movies make me feel, these movies make me miss taking classes. I know. I need to bite my tongue. I miss learning, I miss reading the books, I miss working on projects with people, I miss making new friends because of new classes, I even miss the homework. That’s something I never thought I would admit: I miss the homework. Of course this is me looking back and sugar coating it and thinking about the fun homework assignments, which were few and far between, but they were still there. It seems silly to miss something I hated so much at one point in time, but it has just taken up so much of my life that even now, a couple years out of school, I feel like I am forgetting to do things, that I have something that I should be doing.