Overwhelmed

October 18, 2023

The older I get the more I realize that my capacity is small.

I never felt like I have a large capacity, but I never felt like it is as small as I am realizing it is.

I have always known that I get overwhelmed easily, but it feels like in recently years I have found that I am getting overwhelmed at the drop of a hat. It feels as thought there is a switch, and it gets tripped and I have instantly overwhelmed.

This past year I have been re learning how to understand and cope with day to day emotions, and it has been more of a process than I anticipated.

Something I want to lean into, in order to get better at understanding the emotions that arise, is journaling more intentionally and more regularly. My current role at work is very inconsistent, and that has been both a blessing and a curse. I would love to develop a morning routine that allows me to spend some alone time in journaling and possibly some meditation, but with the fluctuation of my schedule, it makes it difficult to have something that I do every day. This also may just be an excuse I am giving myself for not having done it yet.