Afternoon Thoughts

January 24, 2024

I have a hard time not complaining. Not just because I am a little on the pessimistic side, but also because I feel bad when things go right for me and not for others.

I have always had a hard time not mentioning the bad, even if something is mostly good. I feel like I am bragging about the good if I don’t also mention all of the bad that came with it. I cannot only mention that I am so excited for June, I have to also mention that I am overwhelmed. I cannot only mention that my wedding day was gorgeous, I have to also mention that my make up artist was a no show and that there was another wedding party that snuck into the venue to take pictures with my wedding set up. I cannot just mention that I have a wonderful husband that I love, I have to also mention that there were 15 years that I loved him from afar because we just couldn’t link up.

Why am I this way? Why can I not just mention that I am happy? Why can I not just give the good? Is this a good thing? Am I being realistic? Or am I trying to show that things are not always easy for me? They haven’t been, life has really thrown me some curveballs, but everyone has had their own crap. No ones life has always been easy and smooth. Why do I feel like I need to prove myself to people?